April 26, 2005

The cradles of doom

Heh, creepy.

I got the new Postal Service cd!!!

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Very very happy about that.

Not so happy about my relationship with a certain friend's parent *cough cough*

I like fruit.
And I missed the friggin sample question on the Civics and Economics field test...thats three hours of my life I'm never gonna get back, fart.

I need to work on my quilt...but I won't.

Mr. Thomas: You are the most screwed up conservative I've ever seen
Me: I'm not a conservative.
MT: You're not a liberal either...
Me: Exactly!
MT: But you've GOT to fit into Some group!?!!?!?!?!
Me: um...no.

April 25, 2005

I believe in living: bigger than I'm living now.

Every day I live...
I come upon new obstacles.
New challenges to overcome.
New problems to deal with.
And sometimes...
Most of the time...
I get frusterated.
I curse, I rage, I become angry,
I give up.

But giving up is not what I'm made for.
I was made for dying daily.
For struggling, for fighting,
For overcoming.
For claiming the victory that is already mine.
All because my God
My Master
My Creator
Loves me.

Loves me!
With his whole heart
With everything in him
Has given me everything I want
Everything I need
And I should fall down on the ground and worship him for that.
But I don't.
I fail at that too.
But I'm tired of failing
I'm tired of being tired.
I want to fight the good fight
I want to live my life like I'm supposed to...
In honor of the One who made me.

No matter what it costs.

No matter what.

April 22, 2005

Demeaning words...heh heh.

Raunchy.

Thats how I feel.

Just bleepin' raunchy.

But I wore "the shirt" today, that made me much happier. Even though I'm sick (still :p)

Latest discoveries:
Woe is a cool nickname
People move faster in the rain
Halls taken when your throat is not hurting will make your throat hurt
I have the longest relationship of anyone in my class
my nose hurts.

And that, my dearies, is your millie update. EMILY!!! THE FLIPPIN EMAIL DIDNT WORK!!! GAH!!!! NO CREATURE MAIL FOR ME :(

April 20, 2005

And this is one big happy.

I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles
In our eyes are mirror images and when
We kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate that God himself
Did make us into corresponding shapes like
Puzzle pieces from the clay
And true, it may seem like a stretch, but
Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled
Head when you're away when I am missing you to death

When you are out there on the road for
Several weeks of shows and when you scan
The radio, I hope this song will guide you home

They will see us waving from such great
Heights, 'come down now,' they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away,
'come down now,' but we'll stay...

I tried my best to leave this all on your
Machine but the persistent beat it sounded
Thin upon listening
And that frankly will not fly.
You will hear
The shrillest highs and lowest lows with
The windows down when this is guiding you home

How wonderful the sounds
Of the Earth when you're in love
And how beautiful the way
That life goes on.

Well, I'm sick, and that was a song by The Postal Service, and I wrote the last paragraph, and even thoiugh I'm sick and insanely irritable and kinda fed up with the world as of late, I'm really very happy. Let me rephrase that...I'm very in love. And I have much joy. Muchos...um...joyos.

Yeah.

Life is one big happy!

April 18, 2005

Well, I say...hootinanny.

We played a blind number game this morning...and I poked some poeple in the eye :p

Life's so good :)

Hey, you know what? I hate gossip. I was riding with some friends a few days ago and all they did was talk about other people and how much they suck. Surely God meant for us to use our lives better than this...all we do is gossip. It gives me a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. And the real problem is that I do it too. So I'm starting a new thing...trying not to gossip all the time. I want to live my own life, not talk about someone else's. And my life is the best, so I have no problem with doing that!

JABAAAZ!!! GIT-ER-DUN!!!! (theme for our new pastor)

I love our new pastor! He's so great!!! Gah!

Happiness.

:)

April 14, 2005

Bleed it black and blue

Days are numbered 6-6-6
And I'll begin the countdown
By calling off the circus
somewhere in these
Cryptic scriptures
I'll find myself drifting in a sky
Full of...
Scars they cut into you
Blisters rose colored hue
Mayday we're going down
These mescaline memories are morose
Your kerosene company is comatose
Our days are numbered 3-2-1
And when you bit the bullet I held the smoking gun
Somewhere in these
Violent volumes
I'll find myself drifting in a sky
Full of...
Scars they cut into you
Blisters rose colored hue
Mayday we're going down
These mescaline memories are morose
Your kerosene company is comatose
And I would sick up half of my cold eye
To set you on your head
If I were you then I would memorize
This loose lipped lullaby
Instead of waiting
Carving out your own
Scars they cut into you
Blisters rose colored hue
Mayday we're going down
Follow we went around
Scars they cut into you
Blisters rose colored hue
Mayday we're going down
These mescaline memories are morose
Your kerosene company is comatose

Damn the idiot who made up time.

April 13, 2005

Oh what the fuck?

roses are red
violets are blue
I'm schizophrenic
and so am I

Why didn't anything come today!??!
Well, hun, he has a job now, so his time is probably taken up...
I don't care if he has a job or a monkey up his butt, I WANT MY LETTER!!!

I missed Leah today.

WHERE ARE YOU EMILY?!!?!?!?!
GAH!!!

April 12, 2005

Slut puppy

*groan*

Holy ef.

"What if God smoked cannibus?"
"Maybe he already does."
"How do you know?"
"He let the U.S. mail system come into being, didn't he?!?!?"

Holy ef.

*groan*

April 08, 2005

Oh, cruel world...to bring me so high...

Today was so awful.

I couldn't stop thinking about all the stuff I put Tim through. Why does he love me so much?
HOW can he love me so much?

He's the only person I have ever loved more than life. More than my family. More than myself.

What was I thinking?

It makes me cry when I think about it.

I could never deserve this boy.

April 06, 2005

bird of prey!

I GOT INCENSES!!!

And I had a heart to heart with one of my firends, and I was talking about Tim...it was like I fell even more in love with him just by talking about him.

I so don't deserve this boy.

But I'm not about to complain :)

I don't care if I fuck up
I'm goin on a date
With a rich white lady,
Ain't life great? :)

April 05, 2005

Whipoorwill

Well well well

Somebody had a FREAKIN AMAZING DAY!!!!!

I can only think of one thing that would have made it better...

I revisited the site of our first kiss, and drove up in the mountains to watch the sunset, and I am just so completely happy.

Love is, like, the best ever!

April 04, 2005

Sew yourself up, but don't STAPLE IT!!!

I hate that song by Jack Johnson...Staple It Together...it's so annoying...

Andyway, in other news...GOOD STUFF FOR TODAY!!!

J: What's wrong with these french kids anyway?
M: Well, they're french...they care about liberty, equality and truth....and we, my friend, are American...we care about sex.

Plate: make love not war and babies not guns

*flip*
*Flip*
*Flip*
*FLIP!*
Owwwwwww...

NOT SO GOOD STUFF FOR TODAY!!!

M: Did you send my letter?
MO: No, I haven't read it all, and I don't want you to start this whole "undying love" stuff again.
M: *quietly* What the fuck do you think this is? A fling? Oh yeah, a fling over letters that YOU read!!! Yuck.

I hope the good outweighs the bad.

I hope I hope I hope.