June 30, 2005

*cough cough cough RETCH cough*

Gah, yuck, the smell of popcorn makes me completely sick. Ugh. Oh gross.

ANNA!!! YOUR PARTY WILL ROCK!!!!
What do you want?
And I already tried to get the Monty Python thing, I think Emily got the last one made. Poop. So I need ideas.

I love this new hat. Its the coolest. And most awesome. It should be...it was freaking expensive...I hate tv.

Hehe, "complaints...coming to a blog near you"

June 29, 2005

Love, plans, sex, magic

I'm making some plans *looks mysterious*

They're gonna be stellar!!!

Gah!! Yay!!! :)

June 28, 2005

Social Status: Descending

I had a great time at the mall with Lindsay today, found an awesome shirt and met a cool new cashier friend, with whom we decided that since I don't like Nirvana, I am therefore unamerican.

I can taste blood in my mouth.

June 25, 2005

Yoga is for the wind

We went to Olive Garden, where the food was primo (I hate that word) and our waiter's name was Chipair, which means monkey caught by rope. Then ONWARD! to B&N where I found about 500 things to spend my money on, including a freaking awesome book of poems.

And I parked straight. I parked straight so hard!

Dormant animus

Puddles.

Puddles puddles puddles.

I love them.

Everything spilling out until there's nothing left.

Puddles.

Lovely lovely puddles.

June 24, 2005

Oh, Johnny boy, yore mama...is gone.

Sick.

Yep, barfing my guts out till three in the morning. And crying...I wasn't just crying, I was out of control bawling for two straight hours. I don't get it...

Oh well.

June 23, 2005

Paint the sky with tones of sadness, make sure you dance when the music's gone...

I think I'm getting sick.

And I feel so freaking smothered by life, all I want is to be away from people. People being anyone outside of my mom, dad and Tim. I just feel totally wasted on everything.

I am gonna be...

June 20, 2005

Show me the way...the way to live...and show me the way to die.

Today has been amazing. And beautiful. I could hear my laughter echoing across the mountains as I read a letter from my love. Today is just gorgeous.

I love it!!!

June 17, 2005

Why is waiting so depressing?

I'm gonna throw up.

We had nice waitresses today at Ruby Tuesday's, and I saw Mr. Barnsback, and the day was going well...and now I'm going for dissolving into a small puddle of muck. Yeah. That would be great.

I feel prego. Not really. Crap.

I'm gonna go sleep now.

June 15, 2005


Simple and Clean Posted by Hello

Remember...you can always...praaaaay...cuz it's alright with me :)

I feel beautiful. Which is a rare and wonderful feeling.

I met the coolest lady!!! She works at the pink poodle, where I want to get a job eventually, and she is soooo flippin nice!!! She liked my clothes too!!

AND WE'VE GOT A ROAD TRIP ON THURSDAY!!!

So Anna, Leah, Emms, check your email tizzles!!

I LOVE THE WORLD!!!

And phone calls are the best :)

June 13, 2005

Names constant on your cracked lips are now EVISCERATED!!!!

YOUR EULOGY IS LIKE POETRY

BUT!

YOUR MOUTH IS LIKE A MAGAZINE!!!!

GAH!!!

PHONE PRIVILIGES!!!!!

I GET TO CALL MY BABY!!!!!

How did life get so beautiful so fast?!?!? YES!!!! YES!!!

I am so overjoyed!!! My dad is so cool!!! AND MY MOM'S EVEN BETTER!!!!

This totally makes my day worthwhile, life is the best and I am SO HAPPY!!!

GAH!! YAYY!!!!!

I DON'T HAVE A BIG ENOUGH WORD!!!!!

EXCEPT EVISCERATED!!!!

EVISCERATED!!!!!

Tunnel of horns

I'm sitting here in nothing but a balck bra and my jeans, feeling rather sick to my stomach and wanting quite badly to fly to SP and see my baby.

Notice I said fly. I wouldn't drive anywhere right now.

Gah, today is just kinda weird...I am so glad I'm home.

June 11, 2005

Mutant blood-sucking flies

I'll sleep and dream of the way
I see people during the day
I'm only afraid to admit
As the beautiful turn inside out
These twisted gargoyles roam and shout
"We're really what's inside of you"
And I feel the need to fall
Going sideways down the hall
Grasping paintings as a resort
I jerk and twist in my sleep
My subconscious sounds the retreat
I can't look at them anymore
My eyes can't see the sun without flinching
My heart can't take your sin
And asleep, these revelations pinching
Create a most amazing din
What do the weak say to rejection?
I feel these festering infections
As restless, I half-wake and collapse
Someone looked at me without cringing
Someone loved this sin, infringing

And now I'm free to sleep.

June 04, 2005

Oh-a-heck-yes!!!!!

FINALLY!!!

I've been trying to beat the MCR game "Sweet Revenge" for about five weeks now and I finally did it!!!! Yay!!!

And I leave tomorrow!!! double yay!!!!

Ow...my knee hurts :~(

Hehe...the face has a big nose.

I love the world!!!! And I love Tim.

June 02, 2005

I love college kids *barf*

I love those kids you see
Fresh outta college and 23
They think they know what it's like
And enjoy complaining about everyone's lives
They seem to think that cynical
Is the new way to survive
Well, college boy and college girl
I've got a brand new vibe.

Try living for someone
Other than yourself
Omnipotence is God's
And thankfully that's not you.
So come out of your self-absorbance
And your "new" outlook on the world
There are wonderful things out there
Let's not all be drama queens
Let's try and see beyond our own.

So you think the younger generation
Has no take on the state of the nation
Perhaps you think we're blind
Did you ever take the time
To talk to one of us in passing?
We have opinions and we'll share them
Just think of me next time you're trashing
The future college's dreams.

Remember that 23
Does not mean you know everything
Sure, you've got opinions too
Doesn't always mean they're true
Try to forget and love a little
Maybe forget your pain for awhile
Otherwise, you're no better than all "us kids"
You seem to hate so fervently.

Can I just say that I've been noticing alot lately that kids over 23 are really pissy? It's like their opinion is the only one that matters and they enjoy it immensely when thay can tear down someone else's opinion or dignity.

Why do I hate the way people are so much?

Something better than nothing

I'm hurting...

Really bad.

Here's some lyrics for the words I don't have.


Stood back and shut the door
You know I've never seen any of these people before
Sounds so right when it comes from a friend
I say "We all get balled up then let it begin"
...hand it over softly before somebody else gets hurt

LIGHT MY HANDS ON FIRE
MY SWEET ANGEL
TAKE MY OXYGEN
I'M GROWING OLD
WHATEVER YOU DO
DON'T STOP TILL YOU'RE THROUGH
IT'LL BE ALRIGHT, (WE WILL BE ALRIGHT)
TAKE MY OXYGEN
MY SWEET ANGEL

Hold on, lets put the drugs in the back
Just like old times in the brown pontiac
I used to be so strong in your arms
But now they're small, they're small
...hand it over softly before somebody else gets hurt,( gets hurt)

LIGHT MY HANDS ON FIRE
MY SWEET ANGEL
TAKE MY OXYGEN
I'M GROWING OLD
WHATEVER YOU DO,
DON'T STOP TILL YOU'RE THROUGH
IT'LL BE ALRIGHT
(IT'LL BE ALRIGHT.)

AUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.

June 01, 2005


This is My painting, slightly altered...the other one pictured on my site earlier just wasn't inspired, and the name of this one is "In the Beginning" In case you can't tell, it's a fetus. Posted by Hello