July 31, 2005

Behavior: Unnecessary

I danced after Abby Ledford today like a crazed dinosaur.

Danced her right out of church.


And Leah's back, so that means we only have one more sheep to return to the pen before we have our flock back together!!

And by the way, we missed you guys :(


July 30, 2005

No one knocks around

Winds of misfortune seem to blow my way daily.

Ahhh, such is the life of muah.

And I love it.

Hey, Anna, email me izzle or I'll have to come hunt you down!!!

Dang it, I'm lonely :(

July 28, 2005

There's a HEAD?!?! Oh, nevermind it was a skull.

I have discovered that I am anti...

and I don't understand.

I'm not popular by the standards of any group...

not even normal ones...

Why doesn't this bother me?

Maybe because I just love to be alive.

July 27, 2005

Inside Jokes...





July 26, 2005

Ahhhhhhhh, cap'n Crunch, my heart breaks for you.

Too many heartbreaks for just one town.

Far too many.

July 24, 2005

Tumble dry low

Something feels weird.

I didn't expect for that conversation to go...that...way.

I think once one thing starts to go well, everything else starts disintegrate.

I don't need to be so depressing. I've got a great week ahead of me!!

I just wanted Tim to be as happy for me as all my other guys are. Guys meaning brothers in Christ. But he and my dad are in the smae boat it seems, soooo...yeah.


The days are shorter
As nights stretch long
I want to loiter
At the end of a song
The last dying note
Like a crimson breath
That seems to float
On a wind, bereft
Of all the things
That make it live
And though it stings
It's what I give
To my love,
My heart,
My dear,
Just wait forever
And I'll be here.

Crappy poetry defined. Dontcha just love that? ;P

The band has a name...buttmunch.

I have had the single greatest week of my life.

And now I shall make you all a list of why it was so awesome.

1} I have finally found my calling from God...I'm supposed to go to Africa!
2} I received confirmation about my relationship with Tim...he's the one I'm supposed to marry.
3} Hold on a second, let me glow about that last one for a bit...
4} My crew chief said "Mother fucker" when he hit himself in the chin with the mailbox
5} We threw a dead squirrel on the windshield of the van behind us
6} My crew danced to Kirk Frankilin in the lunchroom on the last day and quite literally went "out with a bang"
7} I had the most amazing crew in the world
8} Matt was a little girl and didn't eat the crap that Courtney and I did, so we made fun of him
9} The mosh pit made us all into sweat monkeys
10} Destiny has a really hilarious stitch voice
11} The ol' whore's rusted!!!
12} Phillip, Justin, Joey, Andrew, Trey, Kirk, Jesse, Other Phillip and J.T. were all sweet and amazing this week.
13} We helped someone and had the most fun doing it.

14} I am home and going to bed now.

Thats all sockets.

July 15, 2005

Pike Rumour Beads

Why is everyone so FUCKING annoying?

Another pointless question with no answer. No unanimous answer anyways.

...I can smell you in my clothes
Cinnamon and sugar, softly stated lies
Cuz you never know just how you look
In other people's eyes.

July 14, 2005

driftwood on the freeway


Makes me feel

like there are little blue men

with five hundred stereoscopes


inside of my head.

I don't know what a stereoscope is.

All evidence has been buried, all tapes have been erased, but your footsteps give you away...

So you're backtracking.


Alrighty, confession time.

- Talking, hearing and otherwise contact with sex makes me want to gag. Especially media wise.

- My Chemical Romance gives me the feeling that, when it's all over, all you really want to do is kill, bleed, die, run away and love desperately all at the same time.

- Who'll Stop the Rain will always make me cry, because it reminds me of a time when I was still small enough for my dad to hold me and sing me to sleep. Now, I can tell he's still afraid I'm gonna leave and never come back. And he doesn't know what to do.

- I'm scared that I won't be able to give Tim a daughter as a punishment for past sins.

- I've hated country music ever since I was told that in order to be popular, I had to like it. So I did. And when I found out that there's more to the world, I started hating the things that were tied to the idea that there was nothing besides your social status.

- I never know how to act around Janie, because I'm scared she'll hate me if I do the wrong thing.

- I love to argue and win because I never feel like my voice is heard otherwise.

- The sound of a repeated commercial makes me want to stab out my eardrums just so I can get away from the monotony.

- Ever since Relient K came out with their book, I've hated them, because they were openly biased about what types of girls they preferred...and I was not one of them.

- I'm still scared that with all the mistakes Tim and I have made, we won't be able to scrape together a happily ever after.

- I say I was saved at the age of five, but I wasn't. It took me till I turned fourteen to figure out that I actually wanted to be a child of God.

- The reason sex makes me sick is because that is such a temptation for me. But I know it's not the right time, so it's an ongoing battle.

- I hate for people to tell me that "you wouldn't understand", even though I know I can't.

- When I'm depressed, I still think about Cameron and everything I did wrong, and I wonder if Tim ever really understood.

- I positively hate letters. Sending them, writing them and weighing them. If I wasn't madly in love with the guy I'm writing to, I would have said "fuck this" about three weeks into it.

- Upbeat, happy, I-found-help stories make me sick.

- Autumn has always made me happy, because I like things that are dying.

- No matter what anyone says, I have always seen myself as ugly. Why can no one just accept that? God, it's not like I'm gonna go get frickin plastic surgery. Jeez.

- I always feel like dancing, though usually no one will join me and I suck horribly.

- I have the guts to pull something off, if there is someone to help share the blame when we're caught.

- I make waay too big of a deal out of my perfect life.

July 13, 2005

What primary role do you think I'd play in prison?

Leah says they'd eat me.

I say...yeah. I agree.

I hate rednecks, stupid effin redneck pigherder woman flipped me off today even though I had the right of way and her and her dinky little "huthbands" were making an illegal turn, gah, fucking idiots!!!

Driving does not sit well with me.

And now the money I owe is ten to Kabanna, eleven to Maurices and I'm home free!! (Kabanna, your other fifteen is coming from Leah...yeah. I don't wanna explain, just know you'll be getting all your money back. Soon. Veeeery soon.)

My lips kinda hurt.

And WHY was I up at EIGHT IN THE MORNING!?!!?!?! I don't know, never will. I never get up till two if at all possible...Anna, I have to agree with you, if any of you call my house and wake me up, I am gonna be sooooo pissed...

I loves me up some sleep.

And some redneck roadkill, heh heh heh.

Stupid idiot.


TAKEN!!!!! Jeez, why ME?!?!?!?!?

July 10, 2005

did his heart beat crimson?

God bless you merry gentlemen
Let nothing you dismay
Remember Christ our Saviour
Was born on Christmas day
To save us all
From Satan's call
When we were gone astray
Oh, tidings of comfort and joy
Comfort and JOY!

Oh tidings of comfort and joy.

From God our heavenly father
The blessed angel came
And unto certain shepherds
Brought tidings of the same
How that in Bethlehem was born
The Son of God by name...
Oh tidings of comfort and joy,
Comfort and Joy,

Oh tidings of comfort and joy!

My absolute favorite Christmas carol.

It couldn't POSSIBLY be upside down

"Punos...is that even a word?"
"Anna, thats says sound...you've got it upside down and backwards"

"weep is doom spelled celtic upside down and backwards"


"I hit you with the weird thi...I missed."


Kabannas house=paradise

"You know what's really great about your sunburn?"

July 04, 2005

Shades of Death

I wanna fly like an eagle
Hit a tree
Spiral out of control
Watch me crash into the sea
I wanna fllllllyyyyyyy
Crash and then get sutured

I love mountain climbing. And waterfalls. And swimming holes. And yes, even snakes (my dad almost stepped on one in South Mountain today) because they are pretty.

Happy July fourth one and all!

July 02, 2005

Impale me on that spike known as your tongue

Today sucks.

So, God, are you out there? Cuz if you are, I can't feel you. I haven't felt you in a very long time. Is this like a punishment? Or the way you work? You make your children feel guilty to the point of death for the wrongs they do but then you leave them and don't give them a way out? Why aren't you here?!?!?! I've been doing everything you've asked!!! Why is it that every day when I come to you I come with a handful of broken promises and regrets instead of anything of worth?

Is this my punishment for being human?

Because if it is it sucks.

I know you aren't like that.

So why do I keep failing?